I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that something terrible has happened to my son Miles.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to be consumed with the fear of losing my son Miles.
This fear is not real and I am allowing it to take up much of my mind the last two days. I push it out and it doesn’t leave. The mind is so powerful. I fear that I am allowing myself to have separation and I have some serious forgiveness to do with this “concept.”
Children….we can allow them to give us an enormous amount of joy or sorrow. So forgiveness with feelings is certainly necessary as well.
I will take many deep breaths today and take in the life I have. Feelings of anything is not serving me well or the rest of humanity.
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February 2, 2008 at 2:03 pm
kidmongo
For a mother it is most difficult to bear the thought that her children are lost or destroying themselves. And the fear of loss is devastating. And when that fear controls and becomes your world, it seems like you are powerless and helpless against this fear.
It’s the mind that wants to “fix things.” To determine and hope for preferred outcomes. Your son is in his process as we all are in ours. Do not inflict useless sorrow on yourself because your son is facing himself. Release him to himself. In the end, Denise, he will find life as his self. Just as we all will.